Many years ago I was a stressed out mess. I was an engineer and front line supervisor in a pharmaceutical manufacturing facility with over 40 people reporting directly to me. Countless times a day I had to make decisions that could greatly impact the company’s bottom line. It was intense to say the least. I had a highly unhealthy need to do it perfectly and to please everyone from management to employees. I knew absolutely nothing about the Divine Feminine Goddess.
- incredibly stressed,
- deeply unhappy, and
- like I didn’t fit in.
As anticipated … stories like that rarely end well.
I had a total emotional/psychological meltdown
I woke up one morning feeling nauseous. Soon I was having intense visual memories and full body sensations of being raped. It was 15 years after the event happened. I was literally lying on the floor in the fetal position screaming crying. My entire life changed that day.
Over the next few days of picking myself up and dusted myself off, I had this deep inner knowing that I needed to visit a New Age bookstore. Even though I hadn’t attended a church since I was 15 or 16 years old, because I grew up in an extremely strict fundamentalist household, “beware the soothsayers” had kept me from crossing the threshold of any place that even remotely resembled anything New Age, pagan, metaphysical, spiritual, wiccan, shamanic, etc. Entering the bookstore was like entering an entirely new world … one I knew absolutely nothing about, yet somehow it felt familiar. I found all of it fascinating and dove in wholeheartedly.
Discovering the Goddess
In addition to getting professional psychological help to deal with the trauma, I also began seeing energy healers and spiritual counselors. One became my personal guide for the next few years. She suggested I take a course through Heart of the Goddess near Philadelphia. It remains to this day one of the most magical places I’ve ever been … with an incredibly decorated classroom, an extraordinary book store, and several rooms for sessions with practitioners of various kinds. The class was a 9-month Women’s Wisdom course – a weekend a month for 9 months going deep into the Goddess Mysteries.
For the first time in my life I felt like I belonged somewhere. The women running the facility were also the ones leading the class. They were unlike anyone I’d ever met. I felt a kinship and connection with the teachers and the students that I can’t really explain. For the first time in my life I began to feel nurtured, more whole, more happy, and like I was genuinely liked for who I am … rather than my job title or an accomplishment of one kind or another. I was free to be me even with imperfections.
That was 27 years ago. I’ve grown and evolved so much since then. I’ve traveled, married, divorced, had a child, homeschooled for 12 years, ran a shamanic healing center in Santa Fe for 10 years, lived in Canada, lived on a million dollar yacht in Fiji and the South Pacific, become a bestselling author (3 times so far), co-developed (with the Divine) several extraordinary energy healing products (oils, mists, lotions, body butters), and channeled in numerous energy healing modalities and countless transformational guided meditations.
Along the way I’ve helped thousands of people discover their unique gifts and talents, align more fully with the Divine, get more in flow with the Universe, find their voice, feel much more empowered, enhance their intuition, and make a positive difference in the world.
I’m now being beckoned back into the Heart of the Goddess to help other women evolve and grow, each in their own unique way, through the Sacred Circle at Magnificent U.
- are feeling a deep need for meaningful connection,
- long for more mystical, magical, Divine Feminine energy in your life,
- want to Up Your Vibe on a regular basis,
- feel compelled to grow personally and evolve spiritually even more than you have already, and
- desire to be appreciated, acknowledged, and accepted for who you are …